It’s not as though I always listen but there’s just so much I don’t hear

Sun, 09 Dec 2007 14:34:16 GMT

how the hell are you still haunting me? i hate you and i wish i never had anything to do with you. i'd be quite happy if you were to get hit or ran down. yep, you're a bastard!!

Fri, 04 May 2007 18:59:49 GMT

it's so scary when i find myself thinking that way. i don't want this now, in september maybe, but not now, we have summer to get thru.
you mean scarily much to me and i hate to think that you could go home and forget me.
but at the same time i trust you more than i've trusted any other fella.
xxx

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 08:11:44 GMT

Spence is comin up tomorrow =) only get him for one night but it's better than nothing. i've missed him so much, hope i'm not falling, that hurts! xxx

thanks to muh john

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 15:56:07 GMT

'Life Is For Fun, Not Misery And Arguements,
Boyfriends Are Fun But There Are Thousands To Choose From,
You're Not Meant For One Person, You Are Only In The Right Situation At The Right Time Determind By Your Choices'

He makes sence some times, miss being close to him but i like where we're at. i don't want him how i had him anymore, i love being able to talk to him about anything i want and knowing he won't judge me.
xxx

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 10:54:31 GMT

i have a fella. woop. hahahahaha.. i hav epost its on my door this morning.... "stop banging aimee" .... "its very naughty" "yeah shhhh!!" hahaha.. and the door was unlocked, could have been so much worse! xxx

Thu, 22 Feb 2007 13:11:12 GMT

tonight i shall be gettin trashed!! i have tomorrow off and will make the most of it. xxx

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 18:12:53 GMT

don't do it. i don't want to see you like that. please don't

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 11:01:57 GMT

i am a happy gurlie. spent the night with him, he doesn't pressurise me into anything , which i love, he doesn't ask for anything, is just more than happy with what he gets. loves xxx

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 15:57:16 GMT

am i feeling miserable??? yes i sure am. i want to cry i'm so miserable. another car broke =( i feel wholey responsible for it! my bro and his gurlie spent 9 hours stuck in a car, 2 hours in the cold and dark watching the fast traffic of the M1, then to top it all she gets grounded. and it's all my fault. i should have checked the car before we left, i knew it was a long journey and didn't even think of checking it. what a nob!
want cuddles =(
xxx

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 09:40:10 GMT

am looking forward to friday and 'talking' to him. by Sat i may have a fella, think it's a bit soon for that but we do really like each other. so meh.
didn't sleep well last night, my wisdom tooth is coming through again and it kept me up! painful!! =(
xx

Mon, 12 Feb 2007 16:53:57 GMT

fook.. my neck hurts. think i slept on spencer's arm like, 2 nights ago. can't move my head much =( got dragged around MK today, bought one thing, was crap!! mum and aaron took me in all the valentines day bits. grr xx

Wed, 07 Feb 2007 18:30:40 GMT

'i just see it as a bit of fun' is that all i am? a bit of fun? does that mean u don't really like me, and that was all in my head? i don't like fool around friends, they always fuck up. and last night... i wanted you too much i almost let you. i love laying with you and teasing you and pissing around and being silly but with kisses. i love being around you. you're a top guy and i dunno what i'd do here without you around as a friend. what if i lose that by fucking this up? i wana know how you want me to react. shall i show you the truth? i kinda did in that text earlier wen i said i dont want either of us to get hurt or to get feelings for the other when they wont be returned. i also want to try to make this into something, but it'l scare u off, i want to be totaly in love with someone, i don't necessarily want that to be you, just you're here at the moment.
will type more soon xx

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 08:24:48 GMT

all i can think of is you and it feels so wrong, you're my friend. i miss you and i only saw you 2 days ago, i think its coz i can talk to you or go downstairs to see you. i want those kisses and hands on my body, was nice feeling wanted again but not wanted for sex. could this be it? xxx

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 10:36:18 GMT

ok yes, finally fucking admitted it to myself. i like him. there we go. now will people stop butting in to it coz it's hard enough to work it out alone. the whole kissing has confused me even more. he knows me so well, it would be like the whole thing with John again. good friends to fooling around to going out to never talking. i don't want that, i learnt my lesson. if anything were going to happen there i would want it to be next year, when we have to make an effort to see each other, not now when i can just go downstairs. he's gone home for 4 days and i found myself thinking about him when i woke up. grr.
anyway, wooop saturday hellly, wooop
loves xxxx

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 11:36:24 GMT

-Copy this entire list into your blog/journal
-Bold everything that is true about you.
-Leave alone anything that is false about you.
-Place an asterisk by anything that you would like to be true about you.

I have had sex while wearing a blindfold.
I have blindfolded someone during sex.
I have had sex while watching porn.
I have had sex while surfing porn on the internet.
I sleep better after sex.
There are some nights when I can’t sleep without sex or masturbating.
The bed is Not my favourite place to have sex.
I get turned on knowing someone is watching me masturbate.
I have masturbated for someone over a webcam.
I have had sex over a webcam.
I will have sex with someone I just met if he/she turns me on.
I have been tied up during sex.
I have had sex with someone who was tied up.
I have dripped hot wax on a lover’s body.
I have had a lover drip hot wax on my body.
I have a foot fetish.
I have a leather fetish.
I have a tickle fetish.
I like being choked during sex.
I have had sex in a burning building.
I have erotic art on display somewhere in my residence. *
I enjoy nudie magazines.
Erotic toys are a regular part of my budget.
I think PlayBoy is tame, maybe even boring.
I have clicked on porn links in my email.
I know the difference between girl/girl and lesbian sex in porn.*
I have watched more than one gay/lesbian porn film.
Much of what I know about sex comes from porn.
Interracial sex turns me on.
I think we should do more to understand the cultures of sex.
I would participate in sex research if given the opportunity.
My current lover does not meet my sexual needs. my current lover takes batteries!!!!
I currently have a crush on someone of the same sex.
I have had sex at my place of employment.
I am often disappointed in my sexual relationships.
Some people might describe me as a nymphomaniac.
I am difficult to live with if I’m not having sex on a regular basis.
I sleep better with someone curled up next to me.
I have had sex underwater.
I have had sex in the snow.*
I have had sex outdoors.
I have had sex in a public place or where I might have been discovered.
I have had sex in a bathroom stall.
I have had sex in a car. *
I am in a polyamorous relationship.
I have to have music playing during sex.
I have had more than 10 orgasms in one night. ********
I have flashed strangers.
I have given sex as a gift.
I have set-up a three-way for my lover.
I stopped during this list to have sex.
All day I dream about sex.

i've seen 87, i didn't think i'd seen many at all

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 17:33:07 GMT

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun!

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
(x) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
Total: 5

( ) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
( ) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total so far: 11

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
(x) American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total so far: 18

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
( ) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil 1
(x) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(x) The Village
( ) Lilo & Stitch
Total so far: 24

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
( ) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
(X) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total so far: 28

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG
Total so far: 33

( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(X) Flubber
Total so far: 37

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total so far: 38

( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter
(x) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
(X) The Mask
( ) Son Of The Mask
Total so far: 42

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Slevin
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Bourne Identity
( ) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( )Predator II
( ) The Fog
( ) Ice Age
( ) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total so far: 44

( ) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
Total so far: 48

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
(x) The Terminator 3
Total so far: 54

(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
( ) X-3
(X) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) The Skulls
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) The Hot Chick
(X) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
Total so far: 64

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle on 34th street
( ) Old School
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Krippendorf's Tribe
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Ice Castles
( ) Boogeyman
(X) The 40-year-old-virgin
Total so far: 66

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
Total so far: 69

( ) Baseketball
( ) Hostel
( ) Waiting for Guffman
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
( ) Devils Rejects
( ) Elf
( ) Highlander
( ) Mothman Prophecies
( ) American History X
( ) Three
Total so Far: 69

( ) The Jacket
(x) Kung Fu Hustle
( ) Shaolin Soccer
( ) Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
( ) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
( ) Willard
Total so far: 73

( ) High Tension
( ) Club Dread
(x) Hulk
( ) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) 28 days later
( ) Orgazmo
( ) Phantasm
( ) Waterworld
Total so far: 77

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
( ) Mortal Kombat
( ) Wolf Creek
( ) Kingdom of Heaven
( ) The Hills Have Eyes
( ) I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
( ) The Last House on the Left
( ) Re-Animator
( ) Army of Darkness
Total so far: 79

( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor
Total so far: 83

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions
( ) Animatrix
( ) Evil Dead
( ) Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
( ) Red Dragon
( ) Silence of the Lambs
( ) Hannibal

TOTAL: 87

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 10:23:00 GMT

andre (the hot guy i said about in the last post) came to see me friday night. we were layin on my bed talkin shit and watching lee evans live in wembley on my computer and kinda holdin hands, was really nice. he ended up stayin, i got 3 hours sleep. didn't do anything, just kisses but it was really nice having him there. just worried that if i do do things with him i'll get bored like i have done with the others which i don't wanna do coz i'm quite liking this guy! and OMG his accent, so good!!
xxx

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 01:38:08 GMT

still really want spencer, also want the hot guy from weds.... grrrs at him. things with me and matt have deff stopped, so that's all good... can't wait till the 10th, will be getting rather drunk and seeing the hot guy again, more kisses and hopefully leave early.. i know it's not the normal me but i've been craving good sex for quite a while now! it's killing me! xxx

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 18:52:33 GMT

i told myself i wouldn't do that again. stayed in matts room again now im really confused as to what i want. i woke up and he put his arm around me and kissed my shoulder lots when he thought i was asleep. made me think that he is interested, earlier on in the day i told him off for being too mean to me, told him that he took jokes too far. he makes me think so much. i dont know if i like him that way or not. sometimes i think i do. other times in sure i dont.
and it doesnt help that this morning when he was fingering me all i could think of was how would spencer do this? how does spencer taste? would spencer be able to get me there? i'm supprised i didnt say his name at some point. it was crap i have to say, he didnt know what he was doin this mornin, all he did was hurt me. i wanted to get up and go half way thru it. he makes himself out to be a sex god but its not till youve done stuff with him that you realise its all a front, sometimes hes not got a clu, other times he is spot on.
xxx

turn around

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 12:53:19 GMT

ok, i don't think i want to carry things on with matt. he's been pissin me off lately. we don't really talk, we don't flirt that much, the only time we seem to get on is at night, which is kinda rubbish. makes me feel trampy but in a way i like it. i get what i want from it and so does he. which is all it really is!! i just dont want other people talking.
am gettin on really well with spencer and tom downstairs, me and spencer have dirty flirtingess, not good that it actually turns me on haha. like the other night my head was resting on his crotch coz he was standin and i was sittin and i was leaning on him...and he started bouncing my head on and off, i was like.. mmmmm, just wanted to turn around and take him in my mouth, not good in a room with 2 other guys in it!!
and then me and tom. tom is lovely, ,i love him to bits, dunno what i would do without that guy sometimes, he gives the best hugs and we have a really caring friendship. he fell asleep on my bed the other day and i just lay next to him and we were all cuddly and it was really sweet.
xxxx

can you name 13 people?

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 12:52:38 GMT

Can you name 13 people you can think of right off the top of your head?
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people...This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first... No Cheating!!!

1. tom
2. james
3. spencer
4. sarah
5. matt
6. antonia
7. helly
8. jim
9. kirsty
10. john
11. alex
12. magic
13. laura

How did you meet 10?
through someone i don't like to remember

What would you do if you never had met 1?
would be very hard to to meet him!! and i would have to live without lost so would probably die!!

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
that would be strange!! id warn him to look after my gurlie!

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
i'm not sure. possibly.

Tell me something about number 11:
she lives in a field!!

Would you ever go on a date with number 12?
lol, i'd spend the whole time having the piss taken outa me and he couldn't cope with the vegginess so no.

What's 7's favorite color?
anything bright, i think green tho

What would you do if 3 confessed they liked you?
feel rather good about myself and take the piss quite a bit

Fact about 9:
i can hear her tele thru the wall

Who is 4 going out with?
no one, it's all about the single gurlies!!

What does 5 do for a living?
nothing, bit fat student!!

Would you ever live with 13?
i already do!

Where does 8 live?
right thru the floor.... grr at jim for the music in yesterdays nap time!!

What do u think of number 6?
love her to bits, she's stronger than she knows and couldn't live without her

What do you like about number 10?
how we can still get on after all that's gone on and nothing's a big deal and he still knows how to talk to me when im in moods.

Favorite Memory with#1?
the conversation the other night so far, or wanting to pee in the fountain

What's the nicest thing 8 has done for you?
helped me with my italian and dished out Jim hugs

Would you ever go out with 2?
would be exremely awkward concidering....

Is 6 taller than you?
lol god no, bless her

Who is better looking 9 or 4?
gotta go with muh homey! loves to sarah wahrah!!

Have you ever done anything illegal with 11?
lol nah, we just get drunk and scoff icecream to make ourselves feel better

REPOST AS
Can you name 13 people?

you better shape up....'cause i need a man

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 08:05:47 GMT

please don't hurt me, i'm so scared that my paranioa will come between us. like last night when i left the room coz i couldn't take it and you came to see me. please don't let me go, please don't shunt me for her. i'm so much better than her, i could be everything you've needed just let me try. i need to speak to her to tell her to back off, i know. last night i wanted to say things to you but i was going to do it at the end of the film but you fell asleep. when i got up to turn everything off and got back in bed it just felt right laying next to you with my arm around you. i wonder what you'd say if i told you never to hurt me? would you laugh? would you think i was stupid? i'm so close to opening up to you, to giving everything i have to what we've got but seeing as you're so closed i'm scared. sitting here thinking, i realise how good i have it and how much better i could be for you if i just tried. thing is, when you talk about your ex, i don't mind at all but as soon as she walks in the room i'm on my guard. i should stop expecting to get hurt coz it's just asking for it.
fos fuck's sake, this could be so much better, if i just changed slightly you would like me that much more.
you mean more to me than you know.
im set on you.
xxxx

matt

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 10:14:28 GMT

i hate that i like you so much! when we were appart for a week i spent the whole time wondering how you were and what you were doing and hoping that you were thinking of me. i hate the fact that you fell asleep in her bed, i know nothing happened and that it meant nothing on your part but a part of me still thinks 'how many times has she slept in a bed with a guy and not shagged them?' the answer being none. the fact that everyone tells me that she really fancies you doesn't help either, she knows how much i like you and that we're seeing each other. makes me think... if i won't sleep with you coz i don't trust you enough yet and she'll shag anyone will you go to her to get what you can't from me? thing is, i know you're not like that, i know you have standards and are a nice guy, infact, one of the nicest guys i know, i know you wouldn't do that to me, and from last night i know you really like me too. it was all a mess in my head yesterday, i thought you liked her too and that i would have to live with you two knowing something was going on. last night though, made it all clear. just the way you held me, and the kisses and the not letting go. thank you, made me feel so much better, so much calmer. i'm sorry i get so wound up, i'm just not letting go of you that quick, i know i could so easily fall in love with you, and i think you feel the same, when it's just me and you i can feel it, it's like it doesn't need to be said. please don't mess me around, i know this fall will hurt more than the others. not as much as the fall from john but still too much. i want you here now, just to be around me, i don't want anything but your company.
kisses
xxx

last night

Sat, 23 Sep 2006 06:07:50 GMT

yes i still love you, yes it hurt so bad when i was told you have a girl,very much in love, pretty much living together. thing is i really do wish you all the best, you're a great boyfriend amd she's a lucky girl. i want to be your friend again, your best friend. how it was last year just without the complications. i dreampt about you last night, miss you like mad. woke up to those messages, kicked myself for not having woke up. i'm awake now and i want to talk to you, want to feel you again.

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 19:04:21 GMT

i hope it isn't too late to say 'i love you'